things haven been going well at home.
problems are surfacing every now and then.
guess i'll have to just take a step by a time and see how things goes.
it seems better.
but my mood is getting worse.
maybe putting a fake smile across my face is the best way to show everyone that nothing has happened.
put it isnt easy.
people dont know you are stressed up with other things.
they simply add on to your troubles.
when i dont say i'm in trouble,
doesnt mean i don't have any troubles.
stop talking about your life, i have no interest.
at this point of time, i just need people for me to rely and depend on.
but that person is definitely not YOU!you were never there when i need someone to depend on.
but you happily take me for granted and depend on me.
I'm sick and tired of all your nonsense.

BUT, seriously
i thank my bestie, my other close friends and dear for standing by me all the time.
i may not have told you guys stuffs but at least i have you guys to depend on.
:)
thank you guys. you gave me strength to carry on my daily activities.
THINGS will get better.

til then, people who are SELF-CENTRED, IRRESPONSIBLE, LIARS and people who cannot be PUNCTUAL,
leave me alone. i have enuff troubles to even care for you.GO AWAY!

hees the week to my mid term break!!!WHEE~
hahahas haven even been studying was like playing PS2 with my bro these few days.
damn fun.
really miss those days when we were you and when we used to spend so much time with each other.

friday
went swimming with raymond!!
my cousin went overseas for CNY so me and ray went swimming instead.
felt really great cuz i swam quite a lot of laps.
:)))
after swimming i had my favourite duck rice AGAIN.
though cheap but YUMS YUMS.
went home after that to continue my dynasty warriors 5 with my bro!!
how i wish i just have to play every single day with my brother can.

Saturday
hmmmm. tuition day as usual.
went out for tuition from 2pm to 5pm.
rush over to xiangli's 21st birthday party!!
woots woots.
my first time at somebody's 21st bday party leh!!
hehe.
chat with mal, cuz most SJC people din go.
left quite early as me had to go meet my JC friends for MJ session.
while mal had to go home to study for her exams on monday.
JIAYOU babe!
our GEEKY look.hahahas i look so LOL

walked super long way to get to sheng hui's house.
but it is worth it lah.
cuz i haven seen my beloved friends for quite sometime.
impt people in my JC life

seeing them made my day!
din play mahjong cuz there were 7 of us.
so me sat ard and look look.
anyway my mahjong skills is too lousy.
LOL
after the finishing all the rounds, we continue playing taboo!
hahahs fun fun!!!
its the first time in my 20 years that i'm staying so late outside.
my bro damn nice, came over to sh hse to fetch me.
but cuz we wanted to go for supper, so ray send my bro home, den we went out for supper til like 4 plus in the morning.
tired, but the ba chor mee is NICE!
YUMS. no wonder i'm putting on weight.
craps.
knockout totally when i'm home!
ZZzzzzzz.

SUNDAY
no studying time to WAHAHAHS.
i'm so loving it.
went to my grandma hse to bai ti gong!
went in the evening.
was trying to be unreasonable to my dear.
I'm so sorry. had a fun time playing with my cousins.
ESP kaden!!!
kaden!!!
love the way he point to his shirt and say "mouse".HAHAS
awww he never fail to make my day by calling me "jie jie"
venita and idelle!
mahjong session, whee won quite a few times.
not bad not bad.hahhas beginners luck i guess.
pray til quite late lah.
lou hei at about 12 midnight?
hahhas while waiting to pray like the 2nd or 3rd session
so fun!!i love spending time with my extended family!
everything ended like 2am in the morning.
collected food that my ah ma divided into 7 seperate bags for the 7 families.
den all went home.
SHUCKS tmr gt meeting in the morning.
have to drag myself up!:(

finally!!
CAT is almost over.
handed in the final assignment and also the mid term exams.

what a relieve, but i guess i'm going to miss rushing CAT assignments out for the next few weeks.
hahhas i din like CAT previously at all when i heard how bad it was from my classmates.
hate it even more cuz we have to use excel which is something that i have never learn b4.

but finally started to fall in love with it cuz it kind make my brain work,
and i love problem solving.
it gave me confidence and gave me happiness when i get to solve the problem.
i always dread assignments.
but i love it when i manage to solve the model after sitting there for hours b4 i get the correct answers.
its smth that let me know that i'm working hard even though the results dun prove it.
:)
just hope that everything will be fine for my CAT module:)
and for the upcoming project,
i'm looking forward to it.

i need a place to vend my anger.
she's such a bitch!!!!ARGH.
once you piss me off, you will never be my friend ever agn.
I'm such a petty person. SO WHAT!!! GET LOST and leave me alone BITCH!

THURSDAY!
whee last day of school.

having a mid term on sat and
2 assignments and one mid term exam next tue and wed.
how am i supposed to enjoy my CNY??
well maybe i shud just enjoy on the first day and study for the remaining.

anyways, VDAY is CNY too.
doesnt really matter much cuz me and ray dun ususally celebrate. BUT
hahahas tat silly dear of mine planned pre-celebration for tmr initially.
however bcuz of my test which i have yet to prepare,
we gotta cancel.
its really sweet of him cuz its like we dun really celebrate vday, so i wasnt expecting anything like this at all.
was really surprised when he asked me out.

LOL sorry dear, we shall have a post vday celebration instead.
HEES knowing that you have the thought of celebrating it with me makes me happy enough!
so even if its not the real day its okay:)))
cuz i'm sure i will still feel like it's one still!!
LOVE ya so much.
cant wait to see you silly!!
though there are many things to be upset and worried about,
you never fail to make my day by coming up with your many small tricks.
thank you for making me feel like the most fortunate person one earth!!!
<3

i Have had a busy week last week:)
CAT assignments kills your brain cells.
but it defintely make me feel smarter.
wells and whenever there's CAT assignmnet to hand in,
i will have a super busy week.
CAT was due this week, which explains my sleepless nights and my moody days!
dashboards are CRAZY!
i spend like 5 days pondering over it. I seriously feel that this is the 1st time i'm taking something so seiously.
though i know that it may not be the right answer,
but i'm proud to admit that i gave in my best shot.
and all of it is MY work! I hope my effort will be paid off.
but even if it doesnt, cuz i know LIFE IS NEVER fair,
I have no regrets.
wanted to give up the day before it was due as wed was really hectic.
had lessons from 8 to 12
meeting from 12 to 3,
lessons agn from 330 to 7pm,
meeting from 7 to 8pm.
rushed to kw talk from 8 to about 10 plus.
OMG i seriously have no time to take a rest.
til i'm home.
den i have to force myself to sit in front of my com to think of the dashboard.
thank goodness i manage to figure it out or something.
perseverance and hard work is what i have got mans.
i'm not talented or gifted like some people, so i have to work doubly hard to get something that people could understand easily.

felt relieved when i managed to hand in my assignment.
Phew.
2 assignments for CAT down,
left one more assignment, midterm and project.
thursday was a much better day as the thing that i'm worrying the most is done.

Friday
went swimming with dear and my cousin at jln besar.
hahahas fun fun fun!
i love swimming.
i love the feeling of being in the water, where i can only hear myself and the nice blue water.
it's the place where it makes me feel calm and nice:)
exercising is a good way to de-stress.
with great company, exercising is even better.
went to have pigs organ soup for lunch with my cousins near the swimming complex.
YUMS YUMS.

after lunch, managed to spend some lovey time with my dearest raymond at BUGIS.
went shopping for my CNY stuffs.
still need to buy a pair of shorts.
saw smth i like, but there's no more sizes.
well too bad.
watched movie at illuma, the edge of darkness.
hahahas so-so only.
i tot it was horror show, cuz the scene of the gal vomitting reminds me of megan fox movie --> jennifer's body.
hahahas but it wasnt.
felt so stoopid.
some non fat yoghurt that we had b4 our movie.
dinner at kopitiam.
no money and gotta save money.
but food there is expensive log.
ate a plate of rice for like $4.20.
HOLY CRAP!
but wells at least it is much cheaper than restaurants.
went bencoolen to have mango ICE!!!
i LOVE MANGOES!!!hees really superb dessert store lah.
walked back chinatown to take 147,
since it was early, decided to go for a haircut then.
hahahas poor baby waited till he feel asleep.
sorry sorry.
took bus home:)))
nice wonderful day out!
i just hope that i could have more time with you!
i love him loads:)

Saturday
tuition in the morning at 10 til 1 plus.
rushed back school for meeting at 230.
had make up lessons at 330 to 7pm.
dun even have time to have a proper meal.
gosh. rushing around drains my energy.
but time passes so much faster when i'm busy.
makes me feel that life is more meaningful:)))

School is slowly killing me.
OMG i'm super exhausted and tired.
But still have meeting in school.
i wish mid terms would come quickly!!
CAT assignment to hand in tomorrow, but i have no idea how to even do the last question.
who is going to enlighten me about dashboards???
hope i will get some inspirations tonight!!
I'm looking forward to weekends!
and time for a haircut!!!
:D